Remembering is the hardest part

I've been away from blogland for a while. As most of you know my mother in law had taken a turn for the worst with her brain cancer. She was over visiting us over a month ago, she wanted to desperately see Caitie play soccer. During that week and some time before, she had started to deteriorate very quickly. I would not wish her suffering on anybody. She had collapsed and been rushed to the hospital here to later be transferred back to Toronto where she lived. During all this time, she had sold her house and needed to be out by the 30th of September. We spent most of our time in the hospital here during her stay and then a couple of trips over to Toronto to visit the hospital there and pack up and move her stuff out of her house.

Our last visit was to attend her funeral on this weekend past. She passed away on Wednesday afternoon and is no longer suffering. There are no words to express how much I will miss my Mum. We're very slowly trying to pick up the pieces of our chaotic lives lately and trying to get back to a life as parents with the girls. If my parents had not been around to help us with them I don't know how we would have gotten through all of this. It's been a very hectic few weeks.


My biggest fear was how I was going to tell Caitlin, however, it went over pretty good. Death is something that a child doesn't understand. I find it hard to understand myself how someone so full of life can have their life end so quickly and horribly. It truly isn't fair. Andy and his brother lost their father only five short years ago and now their mother too. How can you explain that to a child when you're so mad at God yourself for leaving you all alone at such a short age.


We will take it day by day and keep her in our mind and hearts forever.





SAWYER, Joyce. Passed away on 24 September 2008 at the Brampton Civic hospital at the age of 62, after a very courageous battle with cancer. Survived by her two beloved sons Andrew (wife Jennifer) and James (wife Emma), her two grand-daughters Caitlin and Madison, her sister Nettie (husband Richard), her brother Loyal (wife Shirley) and many many treasured friends. Joyce will always be remembered for her quick wit, endless knowledge and generous heart. A daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother, a grandmother, a friend, Joyce has touched our lives in her special way and will always remain in our hearts and will be sadly missed.


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