Although I am on the road to recovery, I am still feeling so frustrated! My health has always been pretty good all in all. These past few months I was faced with so many challenging days where I was put in a situation that I'm not quite used to...being out of control!
This all started late last year when I slowly started going numb in my fingers, then my feet (leading me to fall down the stairs and sprain my ankle last summer), then my whole body, scary stuff! The last day at work I could no longer hold a pen and after rushing to my doctor at the end of the day, I was immediately put off of work until I could get the surgeries done for my carpal tunnel, which I had been diagnosed with a few months prior, which was the next step.
I was also sent to complete a number of tests, including lots of blood tests and an MRI to rule out many different (scary!) things. Thankfully the results showed that I was suffering from a vitamin B12 deficiancy, which would explain the numbness in the rest of my body and my fatigue. So as well as not being able to do all that much, I also had not much energy to do that much either. For a mother and wife, this is hugely challenging. Mommys aren't allowed to be tired and have breaks, so trying to express this in words to my hubby and girls wasn't very easy, and of course over time, becomes repetitive and annoying, for both them and me, and also leaves you with a huge amount of guilt for not doing as much as you wish you could.
Having the time off of work to deal with all of these things has been great, thank goodness, I couldn't imagine having to work like this, although it would have been nicer to be home in better shape! However, I have had the opportunity to have so much quality time on my hands (no punt intended!) which I am also so thankful for! I've become accustomed to my weekly injections of B12, since my body stopped absorbing it, this will be a lifelong thing, and now that my second surgery is done, I just can't wait to start moving again!
First hand done!
Second one!
A big thank you for all of your well wishes!
6 comments:
Glad you are on the road to recovery!
I also had carpal tunnel surgery after Carson was born. It wasn't much fun. I remember how hard it was to shower and wash my hair! Sending get well wishes from Nebraska! Hope you have a super speedy recovery!
Ouch! I can't wait for the post where you say OMG I am back!Nothing is most frustrating then to be a busy Mom slowed down. Take this time and get better and strong...than come back kicking some arse.Happy Mother's Day WEEK! We all deserve more than a day!
Oh, I understand your sadness and frustration with having to place limits on yourself, at least in part. When my thryroid acted up years ago, my energy level plunged and I was irratable for no reason. Making it worse was that the condition was missed and I thought I was just going crazy!
I'm sorry this has been so tough and I hope all is well again soon!! Its so hard to be a Mama when you are not at 100%!!
Oh gosh....I had read about your hands but didn't know the rest. It has been a tough time for you.
No energy with two kiddies is beyond stressful. Glad to hear you're doing so much better now. And wishing you a complete recovery so you can keep up with those lovely munchkins of yours.
Happy Mother's Day!
I hope you're back to your old self and feeling better soon!
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